Yes, I do. I believe that anyone can recover no matter how long they’ve had this disorder. I think that people are too scared to reach out because they don’t think what they have is a problem. It’s a lot of fear, shame, guilt. I do know that it took me a while to ask for help and even after that I still felt like it wasn’t severe enough to get help. I tell everyone that it’s possible, because I do truly believe if you work your ass off, it’s possible.
I’ve been treated like shit for so long from someone I’ve tried giving my all. For almost a year now I’ve had set feelings and to constantly have them shut down and being talked to like garbage. Lately I’ve been seeing new people who’ve said things that made my heart drop because they genuinely care, and think I’m something special. I’ve never felt special. I’ve been used for sex, and have been a fuck buddy for too long that I now know that’s not that I want. I want something real. I can’t always accept when people say nice things to me because it still feels like they’re lying, but for the first time I’m realizing I do deserve to be talked nice to. To be held in bed rather than fucked and pushed aside. It feels good knowing that I can get that, I’m more than being used and getting my feelings crushed. I’m ready to move beyond this.
"I’m not worried about what will happen when you’re 30 years old, because I’ll never get to 30." - Kurt Cobain