I just want to feel good about myself. I want to feel proud that I did something right, not guilty that I’ve failed myself. I’m fighting a war within myself and never did I think it would come to this. I’m fighting against myself, against my better judgement, my mind, what I think is right, what I think is wrong. I’m trying to win, and at the same time I’m trying to lose. I want to make myself proud and most of all, I just want to make myself happy. Or at least the closest to that as I can be.